I went back to the weight management doctor for a follow up visit. Hopped on the scale and discovered I’d lost 3 pounds. Hooray!
Told the Doctor that I work out 6 days a week I’m really watching what I eat and the scale just isn’t moving.
I mentioned that the only time I’ve EVER lost weight in my adult life is when I was on Ritalin and I dumped more than 30 pounds (the above photos are taken exactly 1 year apart. Halloween 2008 & Halloween 2009)
We discussed our course of action & he wrote me a script for a drug called Adipex. Adipex is the brand name for a drug called Phentermine.
I’m only on day 2 of it but it seems to be an appetite suppressing stimulant not very different than the Ritalin was. The side effects seem to be identical including my very favorite constant, incurable cotton mouth.
No amount of chugging water or chewing gum or sucking on a candy helps it. it was the one thing that drove me BATTY about Ritalin and I guess it’s going to be the same with this drug.
As it was with the Ritalin I have had ZERO appetite. I don’t want to eat thing and food doesn’t at all interest me. The difference is the last time I dealt with this I wasn’t exercising at all.
Today I looked at the clock and it was 8pm and I realized I hadn’t eaten anything today. Nothing. We ordered Chinese and even that I didn’t eat much of.
This means I’m going to have to be REALLY conscious to pack in extra protein with each snack and meal I eat.
I’m going to have to be sure I have all the fixings for protein shakes because I have a sneaking suspicion that’s going to be the staple of my diet for a while.
Everything I’ve read about this drug says it’s not to be used for long term. A month at the most. I have an appointment with him again in another 2 weeks and we will see where I’m at then.
I have never been a thin adult, I don’t know what thin feels like or what it would look like on my body.
Usually when I begin a cycle of weight loss I get really really excited and do a lot of seeing myself buying clothing off the rack, being able to wear cute clothing, not laboring so much in boot camp, being able to do things I physically cannot do these days.
I get almost manic and frenzied with these daydreams. The thought that I might actually be thin electrifies me.I buy clothing that I eventually will fit into when I get thin and then it sits and collects dust. I’m 41 years old and every effort prior to this one has failed me.
This time I have had none of that excitement or done any of the day dreaming. I approach this attempt with a more level head and maybe a more willing soul.
I will be taking it one day, one meal at a time. I will not be measuring or weighing myself except for at the doctors office.
I am a different person than I was last time I made this attempt. This is a brand new journey.